A Monologue

Being a nice girl like me is so tiring.
That's why I wanna be a bad girl sometimes.
But I'm NOT into it.
So I'm back to being myself. The old me.
Nobody knows me better EXCEPT me MYSELF.

I can be BAD & NICE at the same time.
Being so SAD & SMILE at the same time.
Everyone done that.
But I do that most often.

Thinking so much after watching others' life.
Get envious easily.

I'm confuses, which one is fake & real?
Hard to understand. Hard to believe.
Keeps on thinking. Keeps on have faith.

 P/s: Just a thinking, can't talk, so I'm just go with the writing.

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