Fairy Tale of Black Pearl

It’s midnight, 10 June 2021 Living this pandemic era. Lockdown, mask, sanitizer, SOP, quarantine, swab test are the things that we hear all over the news, for the entire world. All we need now is this covid thing to be deleted entirely and we can be free again, in a world that gathering is not selfish and being positive is not a bad thing at all. I believe the world can do this.❤️🤞🏻 In normal days, i would go out tonight, it’s wednesday, ladies night. 🍺 The last time I’m at a crowded place drinking and dancing was like last year december I guess. And I kinda missing that vibes. All fun, no worries, the next day just back to work as usual and repeat.  But here I am, thinking to myself about lot of things because I can’t sleep and I remember I have this to write on whenever I’m being overthinking. Back then, we can have all the worries in the world and drink it off during happy hours and moved on. But not now, there’s too much alone time, which is different, might be in a good way...

Hey ✌️ Currently 27 and I just thought writing is still fun for me. This is like a long lost diary that I found back 😉 CHEERS 🥂

I might be stressful but I never weak, still stand stronger than ever Im 24.  This year. And about 03 weeks, we're going to enter a new year, 2017 and one month after that, I will be 25. Yes. 25.  That is fascinating how time flies, i still remember when i was younger, a teenager, im always dreaming about being a working adult, have my own money, buy things that i want, and stuff.   And now that im in that position, that adult, i have my own money BUT together with some liabilities, which i never knew about when i was younger, I do buy things that i want BUT one at a time and i have to check the price first. It just different. When we are younger, we didn't know those things. Like, we own a car by using loan (unless we are rich we pay cash) and loan need to be paid monthly without fail and our money is limited to pay or buy everything that we needed/wanted/required, that, we have to continuously working to earn the money. And the issue here is t...

Yes. It's on Tuesday , Like usual , I'm off to work and do everything that I have to do. Afternoon I'm had lunch with mom at Popular Corner. An ordinary day,  that I thought so. Got home , watching TV while chitchating with my family and nothing. And suddenly my uncle says my granny's gone. I was shocked. Everything was too sudden.  I'm not even talk to her that morning or even after I got back from work. Because u never thought she will be gone that soon. I cried wholeheartedly but she's not even move even a bit. I just don't know what to do. I knows she's but losing her that night was the last thing I would ever expected. And I'm speechless. Inek , amai meh d dah sakit lama , garing garing baka ke nganti parai tang agi meh d gerai , agi ulih makai , agi ulih begagai mina d enda ulih bejalai. Enda meh kami ngadang d nadai malam nyak inik , nadai meh kami bangat kiruh ke d laban udah teleba ninga jako d sigi lain lain belama. Mada...

My choice of World Cup is  Yes ! BRAZIL  Of course the main reason I chose this team is because of that man in No.10 Neymar.  So, later at 4 am, Brasil vs Columbia, Good Luck ! And I'll be watching it. 

There are things in life that we just have to ignore and let go. And just move on.

I'm so glad that in my life I met so many great friends that being so kind to me, tho they have different personalities, but together they cheer up my life.

I think I'm growing up and growing old. I've met many people, learn many things and changed. Yes, I have changed. Like in a good way maybe. I may not a totally bad person but not a nice one either. I have the good and bad in me. Before, when I was in middle school, I have this kind of mindset that people just get along with people who have the same humors as they are. I couldn't stand anyone who have different opinions from me, like I would get mad easily. I hate the fact that their opinions are so silly and why don't they just accept mine. And now that I changed (I think I have but I don't know if I do), I know I'm growing mature over things like that. That everyone have their own opinions and you just need certain way to deal with it, accept it, argue about it, ignore it, it depends on yourself. You're the one that should decide how you want to deal with it.  But now that I changed, people think that I'm a good friend, like always nice, ...

Dear the Best Papa in the world, Happy Birthday !!! I tryna' make a call but he's working so can't pick up my call. Busy I bet. So, let's just tell the world that today is your birthday. Love him wholeheartedly ! Thanks for everything. 4th of May, Papa was born. 

Just another day. Eat, pray, and love. And Repeat. Remembering every minutes. Eloquence. A quiet eloquence. Maybe it just another ordinary day. I'm with me and myself. Alone and lonely. Here. Home. I bet anyone having the same lonely day as mine ? The unusual quiet me. But deep inside I'm talking, louder and clear. Am I ? I just gonna say. Leaving every words. Yes. I am.

Maybe One Day So I read it. The book by Melissa Kantor. This is the cover. Attractive enough to make me pick it up from the bookshelf. First of all, I really enjoyed reading the book that I can't wait till next day to finish it so I have finished it all in two days. (plus minus all the dinner and shower time) Well, if you appreciates friendship very much, you would cry like thousands times for every chapters. Cause I do. Cause it pretty much about how their friendship bonds is all about. The sharing and caring relationship, they really do it for real.  It very rare for us to see friendship like Zoe and Olivia, too close like sisters. Even sisters are not that much close to each other sometimes. So, it very touched how they treat each other, in the face of tragedy. And so I wish that I have that kind of friendship too, the kind of always-being-there-for-you friends no matter in what circumstances.Or maybe I already have.   So that's it. Nice writing. ...

I never know since when that I really loves reading till I bought so many books and I addicted to buy some more. Maybe I just addicted to buy books or what, I don't know. But still it's not a bad thing no ? Of course not  !  Cause books and foods are the two things that we should never regret buying in our life.   (This is some quote from my friend, like randomly said when we're buying books.) Last Sunday I went out with these two besties of mine since high school. So, normally, friends would watching movie, eat and hang out, so that's what we do too.  And we also went to bookstores and of course buy books. We found this one really good book that we both buying one. So I guess I have to start my reading with this one, entitled Maybe One Day by Melissa Kantor. It says,  In the face of tragedy, friendship is everything. I guess that quote just catch my eyes to read it and (since I haven't read it to the end) I bet it's a very good book t...

So, tonight I'm dying my hair. with this type of hair color product and what I can say is  Convenient and Easy.  But please !!! Noted: Please read the instructions carefully cause it's really confusing.  And just follow the instructions. I'm just get bored with my hair so I want to change the color so it may change my mood too. And I chose marshmallow brown. I don't know the result of my hair yet. Hope it will looks nice and amazing. So, 30 mins has passed. Gotta go wash it ! P/s: Thanks to my friend who help me with this. Many thanks !

Maybe it's a bit late for me to mention anything about MH370 as it had happened almost 3 weeks ago. But still, it is the main topic in the world these days since it had happened. Not to mention news channels, even the tweeters, facebookers, bloggers and any online social networking users still keep on talking and mention about this mysterious tragedy. Honestly, this is the saddest tragedy ever happened as for me. I do cried when I watches the news, the sad family. It breaks my heart. I just can't imagine what would I do if it happens to me. It is very sad for the families, relatives and friends to keep on hoping for good news but ended up like this. Southern Indian Ocean ? It is a deep dark ocean.  Like seriously dangerous and terrifying for us to watch. To survive, we need miracles. But miracles do happen. All we need to do is have faith and never stop believing that God's there for us. Well, I sure know that they say it's impossible to survive there but it jus...

Sometimes, all you want is just learn. Know about something. It's a knowledge. But some people just misunderstood your intention. Knowing something doesn't means you'll lose faith on your belief. And dear people, showing off your belief doesn't make me have faith on those. It just make me more faithful on mine. Be careful on what you say, sometimes it hurt till I lose respect. For me, just have faith on what you believed, I don't have to make everyone to believe what I believed. Maybe it just not logic, unacceptable, beyond curiosity. But when you have faith, you don't have any reasons. You don't have to understand why. All you have is trust that it is true. And that's what make me survive in this surrounding. I learn to believe what people told me, and I learn to be more faithful on what I believed. There it is. Have faith. It's a knowledge to know something. Peace yalls.

On 101. I thought. The thought is just there. It never leave.  It will comes and goes.  Just like that.  Just leaving some thoughts. 

Something I found. Thou I believes Him, still I always question why does everything happen. And guess I just have to have Faith and Trust Him. What had happened is always the best for me. Me: God, can I ask You a question? God: Sure Me: Promise You won't get mad God: I promise Me: Why did You let so much stuff happen to me today? God: What do u mean? Me: Well, I woke up late God: Yes Me: My car took forever to start God: Okay Me: at lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait God: Huummm Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call God: All right Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home ~I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn't work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did You do that? God: Let me see, the death angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one of My Angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that Me (humbled): OH GOD: I didn't ...

Morning !!  Should be doing my revision right now.  But my notes are nowhere so I can't do anything that I started to get annoyed. Like seriously.  Can't even keep on my eyes on these papers.  Fed up ! Ughh.  How to study when our mood spoiled? I need to be normal. Be happy. Got paper to sit this evening. God Please give a calm heart and sweet day. Forgive me for what I've sinned. Mood, be good. Hope I'll not ended up like this.  P/s : Keep Calm and Don't Stop the Revision.

I was expecting. But still it was unexpected. Wish the moment freeze. frozen in time. And still be there. Wish the smile was only for me. That you always wait to give it to me. Wish that I'll be there for quite a while. So we can have that "smile at me, smile at you" moment. Sorry that I forget. I'm about to forget. I'll hold the door please come in and just sit here for a while this is my way of telling you  I need you in my life   It's so cold without your touch I've been dreaming way too much   Can we just turn this into reality Cuz I've been thinking 'bout you lately   maybe you can save me  from this crazy world we live in I know we could happen cuz you know that I've been feeling you Storms they will come but I know that the sun will shine again he's my friend and he says  that we belong together and I'll sing a song to break the ice just a smile from you would suffice it's not m...

Missing my family a lots.  My granny.  My papa. Mama. My sisters. Konnie. Normi. My little bro. Darron. Always be my hearties. I'm missing the moment we gather at the living room just to share about how we going through our day. I'm missing the moment we go somewhere to have our morning breakfast with our unwashed bare face. I'm missing the moment my dad telling us all the jokes just to make us laugh thou sometimes it's just too lame that we're not gonna laugh. I'm missing the moment we sing the songs on the radio so loud till our parents get annoyed. I'm missing the moment we're all worrying and being so caring about my cutie granny get sick. I'm missing the moment we spending our weekend arguing about movies on TV. I'm missing the moment we watch football match late at night and screaming out loud and get mad by my mom. She wanna sleep so bad. I'm missing the moment we laugh because of our funny habits in the morning. I'm...